Wednesday, June 7, 2017

Birth Story | Baby A

First off, a little back story of the week leading up to her birth.
When I went to my doctor's appointment at 39 weeks, my belly measured small. This had been a common occurrence for me throughout my pregnancy, but this time I was measuring smaller than the week before. My doctor told me if I hadn't had a previous C-section and was hoping for a VBAC (vaginal birth after cesarean) that he would just induce me the next day and get our baby here. As it stood, there's a higher likelihood of a successful VBAC if you go into labor on your own and my doctor wanted to give me the best chance for that VBAC so we made a plan. My doctor did an ultrasound and baby girl still measured on the small end of normal so he felt comfortable letting me go to my due date of May 9th, and see if she'd come on her own, but induce at that point if needed. That seemed reasonable to me so that is what we went with. Until I walked out of the office and got a call from the nurse who told me that my doctor was actually quite busy that Tuesday, and that I could pick any other day to be induced before then.

So then I was faced with choosing my baby's birthday. This caused me stress! It's not every day that you get to choose the day you have a baby, and I wasn't sure that I liked it! So I went by process of elimination. I figured if I had the choice, I should probably give baby girl her own birthday instead of sharing with me, so we marked off that day, and my photographer wasn't available one of the potential days so we crossed that one off the list, and if we were still hoping for a spontaneous labor, I figured that I should wait as long as possible, so we decided Sunday was our day. My doctor was on all weekend, and Sunday sounded like as good a day as any to have a baby.

Well baby girl seemed very comfortable that week and I had very few contractions and no signs of labor. So Sunday morning came and I called the hospital at 6am to see what time we should come in for the induction. We were told we could come at 7:30am and we proceeded to get everything ready. Jesse's parents arrived at our house at 7am, we gave them instructions on the boys, I kissed those boys of mine one last time before they weren't my only little loves, and we took off for the hospital.





We arrived at 8am and got checked in to Labor and Delivery. We were shown to our room and I changed into my gown. They started an IV, fluids, and Pitocin around 9:30am, my nurse checked me and I was dilated to a meager 1cm, 70% effaced, a -1 station, and we hunkered down for the day.

My brother and sister-in-law came by and hung out with us while we played the waiting game. We visited and played Quiplash, which as my brother said, isn't as fun when there's only four of us and one of us is in labor, but we played none-the-less. While they were there, at 12:05pm I felt a gush of something and wondered if my water had broke. I called the nurse in, and sure enough, my water had broke on its own. I thought for sure once that happened, that I'd start progressing a little quicker. I texted my photographer Jenn with the update and a hopeful heart that we would get to meet our baby girl in a few hours.



At 2:20pm I was checked again, and told this time that I was "1 and a wiggle and 70% effaced." Darn. That was not the progress I had hoped for. Baby had even moved further up so I was closer to a -2 or -3 instead of the -1 I was when I walked in! I started to consider an epidural at this point because the pitocin had been turned up to full strength and my contractions were started to get more intense and consistent, but after a quick trip to the bathroom and repositioning, I felt better enough to hold off for the time being. I had even talked to the nurse about getting the epidural, so she sent the anesthesiologist our way but by the time he came in, I had decided I was OK so we sent Gary on his way until I changed my mind.

By 3:45pm the contractions were getting bad enough that I was feeling quite uncomfortable with each one and decided I might as well get that epidural at this point. Since that was my plan from the beginning, it seemed foolish to hold off much longer. So Gary, bless his soul, came back and administered my epidural. Now I was hoping that with an epidural on board, maybe my body would relax a little and I could start to progress.

At 4:50pm, the nurse checked me again and I was now at 2cm, 80% and the baby was a little lower again. By now I was texting Jenn and asking her how she felt about the middle of the night since it was looking less and less promising that we would be meeting our baby in a timely manner! I guess I got my mom's genes of never ending labor.

5:50pm rolls around and my doctor came to check on me. He said he could stretch me to a 3.5, I was 90% effaced, and the baby was still in that -2 station. He did mention that our baby was being very well behaved and tolerating labor well so everything looked good from that stand point which was very reassuring. It was at this point that he told me I was approaching the next stage of labor which meant if I progressed slowly I had about 7 more hours or if I progressed quickly I'd have about 3-4 more hours and then we would finally be ready to push. It was starting to sink in that at the rate things were moving I still had many many more hours to go. Fortunately it didn't feel like time was dragging by. It was actually moving along quicker than I thought it might and Jesse and I were just basking in the fact that we would be meeting our daughter at the end of all this!

The 9pm check showed no changes but the nurse felt an extra sack of fluid. I guess I had some extra padding in there for Little Miss. She said she'd let my doctor know so he could come break that and see if that could maybe get things moving quicker.

At 10:15pm my doctor swung by again, I was up to 4.5cm and he broke my extra water sack and we crossed our fingers that something would happen instead of this pokey progress we had seen so far. I kept texting Jenn because she obviously needed to be in the loop and had told me that she'd plan to come when I was dilated to about a 7. I just kept texting and told her I wasn't sure I'd ever make it to a 7 and this baby did not want to come! I think by this point my whole family had given up on us having the baby that night too and were all heading to bed. I can't blame them. We had Netflix running off and on throughout the day and tried to rest up at this point since we knew we had a long night ahead of us.

Then, just a little bit before midnight I started feeling different. I started feeling a little pressure, like things might actually be happening. My nurse had told me she'd be back to check on me at midnight so I didn't want to bother her when I knew she'd be in soon, but when I hadn't seen her by 10 minutes after midnight, I told Jesse we needed to get her and check on things. My nurse and Jesse walked back in the door, She checked me for all of 3 seconds and told me that I was complete and we were having a baby right now!

My nurse turned around and started rushing around and setting up the table for delivery. I immediately texted Jenn and told her it was baby time. Like right now. And if she could make it in time that would sure be awesome. She's amazing and I got a text back at 12:14am that she was heading out the door (for her 25 minute drive.) We gave her our room number and code and told the front desk we were expecting someone and to send her right back.

The nurse had me do three practice pushes and then told me to stop pushing and hold that baby in while she called the doctor! I gladly held that baby in while we waited for everyone to arrive. Doctor Porter and Jenn walked through the door at the same time (probably about 12:40am) and we were ready for the big moment! I was told to do a set of three pushes and by the second round of three we had the top of her head out.







 We couldn't help but smile through all of this. It was such an incredible experience to have a vaginal delivery after our C-Section and NICU experience last time. I felt blessed that everything was going so perfectly. Plus, that epidural is an amazing thing, I seriously felt so great the entire labor process!



I thought I might throw up while I was pushing, but somehow kept my ice chips down, and pushed some more.
After only three more pushes, at 12:56 am we had a sweet baby girl!




Jesse cut the umbilical cord


And I got that brand new babe put on my chest. After they scrubbed off the cheese that was covering her.













I was pretty oblivious to my surroundings after that and just soaked up those first moments with our new baby, until I started hearing talk about a lost needle. My doctor, the nurse, and the tech were all searching the table, the floor, and my bed for this lost needle. Finally after taking my bed apart again, Dr. Porter found the missing needle. I felt pretty lucky to have a doctor who would actually stay and look for a needle instead of passing that task on to someone else.

We snuggled for quite awhile and then I finally gave her up to get checked out more thoroughly. She weighed in at 6lbs 13oz and 19 in long and was absolutely perfect. She smelled like heaven, had a double chin, and was completely alert for about two hours. She nursed right away and was a big fan.












My heart bursts every time I look at this picture. My love for Jesse grows with every child and each passing day with our family. He is a wonderful father, my biggest cheerleader, and the only person I wanted by my side for this moment. I love the way he looks at his new daughter. She is one lucky girl to have him as her daddy!


We hadn't officially decided on a name for her before she was born, but Jesse took one look at her and said, "I think her name is Alba."  I thought it was perfect for her too. She came out screaming and the nurses called her feisty and we knew that the middle name of Helen was right for her. Helen was my great-grandmother on my mom's side, and I've heard my mom describe Grandma Helen as feisty so it seemed fitting.





We spent the next several hours in awe of what had just happened and gawked over our newest addition. This perfect, beautiful, baby girl.




We didn't get much sleep that night, but we didn't care.

The next morning we asked Jenn to come back and capture the moment our boys met their new baby sister and I will treasure these pictures forever. The boys were enamored with her and so sweet and loving to their new sister. It brought me to tears seeing my three babies together. I felt this overwhelming sense of love for my kids and for motherhood in general. I am such a lucky mama to call this little family mine.








 Ian asked if my belly was little now and had to see it. I was worried about four-year-old honesty not being favorable to a fresh postpartum belly, but sure enough, he thought my belly was smaller and seemed to approve.



They immediately wanted to unwrap her and find her toes. So we did.
They also were curious what happened to her penis (aka umbilical cord) haha! The conversations you have with little boys is too funny!















I love this picture because it captures how much joy Jesse and I find in our family. These three little people make our lives so much fuller than I ever could have imagined!









Alba, we think you are the most perfect addition to our family! 

Friday, May 12, 2017

Maternity Pictures

I absolutely adore this family of mine. 
These two boys have been our whole world for the past 4 years and we feel beyond blessed to add another little peanut to our family.

We were lucky enough to take some maternity pictures with my sweet friend Jenn with The Minted Company and celebrate this new baby.

Jenn is a miracle worker because the boys were racing around being crazies and she made it look like they were adorable. 







 {I}

{B}














There is so much love we have for this baby before we have even met her. 

Tuesday, April 18, 2017

Baby #3 | Updates

Unfortunately blogging has not been a top priority for me these days, but I definitely want to document this pregnancy before this sweet baby arrives in just a few short weeks! So, we will consult Instagram for what was going down these weeks! haha. 

{22 Weeks}
Rolling over in bed has already become a challenge that requires a three point turn.
Leg cramps hit with a vengeance.
It seems like she is riding really low and I pretty much feel her hit my hips when she moves.
Her movements have become much bigger so others can feel her more consistently.
A little girl from the boys' preschool asked me why my tummy was so big, so I guess that means I'm looking pregnant! 

Just for the fun of it, I've got some comparison pictures from when I was pregnant with the boys. I feel a lot smaller with a single baby this go around, but at the same time, I'm realizing how blessed I was with the boys to not get absolutely huge.

{24 Weeks}
Baby girl is wiggly enough to see from the outside and Ian felt her this week! His eyes lit up and it was the cutest thing ever.
I leap out of bed nearly every night with leg cramps. Jesse always thinks something awful is happening, but nope, just those darn cramps!
I've been having Braxton Hicks somewhat frequently already. I don't remember having very many with the boys, but I'm definitely feeling them this go around.
Briggs comes up and rubs my belly at least once a day and says, "aww, your baby's so cute!" Melts my heart every time.
Everyone keeps asking if you have a name, and the answer is nope!


{26 Weeks}
I've been feeling like this poor baby nearly gets forgotten because I've just been living in my scrubs at the hospital and chasing these cute boys of mine. I promise I don't love you any less, I'm just a busy mama!
Still having lots of leg cramps and this baby gets the hiccups frequently.


{28 Weeks}
I started feeling really tired again this week and my belly is not happy for the last few hours of my shifts with lots of braxton hicks.
I've been feeling my belly really stretch to accommodate this growing babe.
One morning, Briggs woke up as I was heading out the door for work, and he immediately asked to feel baby sister. Moments like that make my mama heart happy. 


{29 Weeks}
This week we moved into our house.
I was given strict instructions by my sweet husband not lift anything and I tried really hard to follow that advice. I spent most of my time with last minute packing, delegating, and cleaning. And then I took a nap and went to work that night so I didn't even get to spend the first night in our new house with everyone else! 


{30 Weeks}
I've been feeling like I have a million things to do and not nearly enough time to do them all in! Obviously the house is in complete turmoil but we are really excited to have a nice fresh space to bring this baby home to! (once it gets put all together that is!)
My hips have been feeling pretty wobbly this week and my tailbone has been killing me this week. I blame all the moving and cleaning.
I had an appointment this week that showed everything was great: 
Baby's heart rate: 138 bpm
I'm measuring right on this week
I was told I could run a marathon with how good my blood pressure was, but since I get winded going up the stairs, I think that might not be a good idea!



{32 Weeks}
Baby girl is a night owl! She's super wiggly from about 8pm-10:30pm. Jesse and I love to lay in bed at night and just play with her. She must just stretch straight out because my whole belly jumps!
This week Jesse set up the crib and rocking chair and I committed to some fabric and a color scheme for the nursery. Grandma made some curtains and a crib skirt for baby girl and we bought some more adorable clothes. I cannot wait to put these cute clothes on our sweet baby!


{33 weeks}
We did maternity pictures this week! The boys were everywhere but where they should be, but thankfully our photographer was amazing and dealt with them so well. Bless her soul.
I had another doctor's appointment this week where I measured small, so we did a quick ultrasound and baby girl was measuring right on and fluid levels were great, so that was perfect. 
She gets the hiccups at least daily and typically several times a day. I always feel her hiccuping in the same spot down in my lower left quadrant of my belly. 

I also bought my first pair of maternity scrubs this week. 
Because I was put on bedrest with the boys at 30 weeks, I was able to survive in my regular scrubs, but I figured this go around I might need a little extra length. I can still make my regular ones work, but the maternity top gives me just a little more coverage over that ever growing belly!


{34 Weeks}
I've been feeling pretty good and baby still seems to have plenty of room to spread out. 
She moves all over my whole belly, until her daddy touches my belly and then she's calm as can be. She must be a daddy's girl already.
I started a new job this week down at Riverton Hospital! I was sad to leave Primary Children's, but when we moved, my drive became closer to an hour and it was rough. Thankfully I was able to get a job in the Special Care Nursery where my drive time is  closer to 25 minutes and I get to learn new skills as a nurse. 



{35 Weeks}
I sometimes forget how funny my body is when I'm pregnant until I see my shadow or walk past a mirror sideways. 

I feel like I'm living in my sweats these days.  
I've been very encouraged though because I can still see my ankles and wear my wedding band, both of which I couldn't do towards the end with the boys. 


{36 Weeks}
I'm down to the last month. It's blowing my mind! 9 months really does fly by.
I'm still feeling pretty good but I am slow moving in the mornings. A nice warm shower is my best friend in the morning.
My belly button has completely flattened out and is nearly invisible these days because it's so stretched. 
Sitting in one spot causes some serious rib and back pain these days.
I braved a trip down to St. George this week by myself with the boys. Jesse is out of town and I worked all weekend and finding sitters to watch the boys for the entire day for three days in a row was causing me stress, so I packed us up and drove down! I got a quick two and a half day vacation and the boys ended up staying almost a week. It was such a blessing to have my parents take the boys this weekend because my body did not feel good after those three days of work and I can't even imagine how exhausted I would have been to have to manage the kids after my shifts too. 



Briggs took this picture and I couldn't help but giggle at how perfectly round my bump is. Wow. Good picture Briggsy-boy!


Baby girl, we love you so much and can't wait for you to arrive! I'm hoping for a VBAC this go around, so everything feels new and different. It's a little weird having a delivery time be so up in the air, but at the same time I'm really excited about that! Of course Jesse is trying to get all his buildings set up and traveling in before the baby comes, so let's just hope she decides to grace us with her presence after Jesse is back home. 

Saturday, April 15, 2017

F O U R

It's happened again. 
I blinked, and this time they turned four!

I can't believe how much joy these two add to our lives. 
They are happy, funny, giggly, opinionated, chatty, playful, imaginative, loud, busy, caring boys.
I absolutely adore being their mom.






Here are some tidbits about our cute boys right now:

They are really into sandwiches with "salad" {not so much peanut butter sandwiches for whatever reason, but considering they used to not like either, I'll take it!}

They are obsessed with the aquarium ("aqarion") and ask to go there multiple times a week.

They have been asking me lately what different animals eat. All day long I hear, "Mama, what do sea turtles eat?" "Mama, what do sharks eat?" "Mama, what do owls eat?" etc.

They also like to point out where different animals live and mostly focus on zoo or aquarium animals.

They have started being such better listeners lately.

They are mastering the art of sharing. I frequently hear them talk about whose turn it is and watch them play with something for a little while and then hand it over to their brother for a turn. They aren't always great at sharing with other kids, but they are sure great with one another. 

Since we moved (which obviously deserves its own blog post) the boys have been moved down to the basement and have transitioned to being a floor away like champs. In fact I'm pretty sure we all sleep better a floor away from each other. 

They have drastically improved in their social skills. We have worked really hard at saying "Hi" to other kids and playing nicely with them instead of roaring at them. We still have some work to do, but they are doing so much better. 

They always tell me they don't want to go to preschool, but once they are there, they usually do fine.

They love putting ties, fabric, yarn, blankets, or anything else they can find in the back of their pants and pretending they are cats, Mater, peacocks, or anything else they can come up with. Their cool grandma made them some peacock tails for their birthday and they have been big fans of them!


Ian
He does really well going to Primary

He has been potty trained since about last Sept, and was good nearly from day one.

He got a betta fish for his birthday and he calls it a "pirate fish." We don't know why but it's adorable.

He loves to sing and sings frequently throughout the day.

At bedtime lately he has really enjoyed snuggling in Briggs' bed with the three of us and reading the "Z is for Moose" book. He even tells me sometimes, "I snuggle Briggs" and fortunately Briggs has been OK with it because it hasn't always been that way in the past. I even went to check on them the other night and they had both fallen asleep together in Briggs' bed which is unusual because Ian typically crawls back into his bed before he falls asleep.

I frequently hear, "deal, mama?"

Asks for ice cream anytime we go through a drive-thru (which unfortunately has been increasing in frequency as of late.)

Several times a week he asks to go for a hike. He loves being outdoors.

Loves getting kissed by me. One day he commented on how many kisses I was giving him and that he liked it which of course made my mama heart grow and I smothered him in more kisses.



Briggs
He always wants me to stay in Primary with him. He does better if Jesse drops him off.

He's had very little desire to be potty trained, but we forced him into it for the past several weeks and now we are basically there! He even tells me that he needs to go potty now instead of me just taking him frequently.

He is very aware of baby sister and loves to touch my belly and baby talks and sings to her. Every day he asks to feel baby sister and tells me how cute she is. He also tells everyone he meets that there's a baby in my tummy.

He likes to have his "stuff," which includes his two pillows and blanket, especially at bedtime.

He also loves to sing and will announce what song he is going to sing before starting.

He wants me to hold him all the time. This doesn't make Jesse so happy these days. He's convinced I'm going to speed up delivery of Little Miss by 10 minutes every time I pick up one of the boys. He may be right...

He got two little tetras for his birthday and he calls them his "buddies."

Asks for my permission to be different animals throughout the day.

He's been very intrigued by his dimples lately and likes to look in the mirror and move his lips around so he can check out his dimples. It's one of my favorite things right now.